Zara Vienna Flint

( Hexed to self )

( Hexed to Jasmine )

This is one very strange week.

I think all of this second guessing lately is actually good for me.

( Hexed to Kristof )

I'm looking forward to taking my mind away from everything and just playing Quidditch.

( Hexed to Self | Akira and Adrian could break it )

( Hexed to Nadya, Brooklyn, Lucas )

( Hexed to Brooklyn )

( Hexed to Self )

I'm looking forward to this year ending.

This is not the best start to a year.

( Believe what you wish, the stars will tell us one day. )


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It seems each passing day things lead to a harder place.


[Hexed to self. Alexis and Akira can break it]

I am sick of trying, each time I speak with any of my siblings I am more on the outside than the last time I spoke with them. Brooklyn, as wonderful as he is doesn't often speak to me, I don't blame him he's close to Nadya, and I'm not really a good one for anyone of her close friends to be around. Although I hoped Lucas wouldn't turn out so cold it appears now that he'd rather be cold and rude. He's 11 and already wants me to die. I shouldn't be surprised. I can't imagine what my parents or house elves have said about me while I've been here. It is time I just remove myself from it all, remove myself from even trying to be close to any of them. It's a pointless effort. I see the world so differently, I see people so differently. I don't want to admit to my fears, but I can't hide them away any longer either.

[End Hex]


[Hexed to Self]

I'm worried about Jasmine, and her budding views on the Weasley's and Potter's. I admit that Albus is a complete jerk, and Michael was a complete idiot. But for the rest of the family to stop talking to her, it's daft on their part. If they were smart they'd continue to talk to her, and I know they are smart. It's these locked views that are forced on us. I can't go back to the Manor again. I'd say I'll owl my parents, but I know they probably wont even react to any of it.

I've got more than enough saved up for a small flat in London. I don't need much. Just a place to go for the summers, for the holidays. Until I'm able to get out of school and work. It's odd to think about this desire to leave my family so quickly, so swiftly. It isn't safe with them though. I don't know what Nadya is up to, but I know if she is assigning me a protector she's got something going on that doesn't feel right to me. I'm afraid to talk about it with anyone. I don't want to get caught in the middle, but I think I've already put myself their. I love my family, but when I'm so clearly not a part of it, it is hard to remain with them. I see the world more along the lines that Frank does, but I don't see the lines as clearly. It's a terrible place to be. I'd rather just vanish from all of them. It'd make things simple. But I know I can't do that. I've got no choice but to stand my ground, although I've had dreams about my death lately, it hasn't been anything I didn't think before, but it is uncomfortable.

There isn't anyone I feel comfortable talking to about this. I could talk to Jasmine, but her views are more along the lines of my sisters, I could talk to Frank but I'm not sure he'd get it all, I could talk to Alexis, but he seems to view things similar to my sister as well. Akira is my greatest hope to speak with.

This is when for once I wish I was clearly marked on one side or the other. The middle is a lonely ground. A terribly lonely ground.

[End Hex]


[Akira]

I've got a possible favor to ask. I'm not sure its a fair one, but you are the only person I could possibly ask.

[End Hex]


[Hexed to Nadya]

It doesn't seem right not telling you what I'm planning. Perhaps because you'll find out one way or another it saves time to just tell you flat out.

I'm planning on getting a flat in London for the summer and the rest of schooling. It's come to my attention that it is a better option for me, as well as you, Brooklyn, and Lucas. You are more capable of keeping them both safe than I am. I am well aware of that. However I'm capable of keeping myself safe.

Just be careful, in whatever it is your doing.
[End Hex]















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[Hexed to Friends and Family]

I found a dress. It fits perfectly, and is comfortable. I've never understood the point in wearing clothing that isn't comfortable, even for a ball.

Life, life has actually been great. Although I wish we would have won the game. I know we are a really talented team.
[End Hex]

[Hexed to self | Jasmine, Akira and Nadya can read it]
I've been spending more time with Frank lately, I, it's strange to think what life was like before I started seeing him. It was good, but I love spending time with him. I sometimes can't believe how well it is going. Frank makes me feel comfortable. Sometimes I'm still surprised that we work so well together... From such different worlds, but in reality they aren't as different as so many would want to think.
[End Hex]

For the first time I'm actually really looking forward to a ball, and it is because of my date.



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Congratulations to Hufflepuff for a good game. I look forward to working with a new beater. Hopefully one that will actually play the game properly. Addison, I hope you heal quickly. Gryffindor, Ravenclaw you both played really well.


[Jasmine]

Everything figured out?

[End Hex]


[Frank]

Hi... What are you up to?

[End hex]



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[Jasmine]

If I told you I kissed Frank what would you say? How are things with Michael? No one is giving you a hard time are they?

[End Hex]


A lot is changing around here lately, most of it I love, some of it worries me, and some of it scares me just a little.


[Frank]

I had a really good time with you this weekend. I can't wait to see you soon.
[End hex]



[Hexed to Self | Jasmine could break it]

I really want to know what my sister is up to, it has to be something. And why did I even bother saying something to James Potter? Probably because it is about Alexis... I'm worried about him, I am worried he'll get himself stuck in something he shouldn't be in. He's too good of a person to end up in anything bad.

Even with everything going on, I can't stop smiling. This past weekend was amazing, Frank just, he took my breath away. I don't know what it is about him, but flying with him, kissing him, being in his arms..... And just being around him. He's just... Amazing.

[End Hex]




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It's been a week of surprises, but I'm enjoying most of them, if not most.

[Hexed to Self | Jasmine can read]

Chess, chess was brilliant. What was it that made him all at once start talking to me? Maybe it is all of this cross borders, or invisible borders, I don't know. I don't want to admit to it, but he's interesting, sweet, smart, funny, really attractive.

Besides that, I'm worried about what is going on with some of the other people in this school, sides, lines, it feels like a calm... Forget it, perhaps worrying about other things for a little bit would be a good idea.

[End Hex]

I'm looking forward to the Quidditch coming up, it should be a good one, and I'm looking forward to Hogsmeade.

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I think that was the fifth cracked rib in two years. I'm fine though. It was a really intense match. Congratulations to Gryffindor, I look forward to playing you again. And congradulations to Ravenclaw in the match with Hufflepuff, from what I saw it was a really good match.


[Hexed to Jasmine]
How is it all going?
[End Hex]

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This ball has really taken the attention of the school. I suppose it isn't a bad thing for people to get excited about, after all the prospects of going with the one you fancy is a bit of a rush I suppose.

Besides the ball, classes are moving along just fine, it's nice to be back at school. I love fall here. There is something about it, somewhat peaceful and complete, the summer is over. I can't say I miss it.

- ZVF


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